Monday, August 27, 2012

Sprinkle On!

I’ll be honest, I have been bombarded with the realization that this Princess Path that God has carved out for me (Remember: He has a specific, Princess Path for you too) is both a privileged path and a perilous path.  (Thank you Jesus Calling for these words a few days ago).  Just because it is called the Princess Path, it is surly not a bed of roses, is it?

Sometimes quite frankly, I feel rather presumptuous about carrying out such a calling, one that has involved writing and encouraging other women, and am tempted to quit writing and scriptures like “Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life…” (1Thes4:11) the enemy uses to tempt me to be quiet. 

The enemy used scriptures to tempt Jesus too, right??

Any desire to make myself famous I quite frankly want to squash so that the desire for me to make Jesus known through my life can be far greater.  Do you ever feel like this?  Are you familiar with this sort of split-personality…okay, maybe I am the only crazy one-ha!

I surely do not want my efforts to share God’s Love-Light-Life and how He motivates me to do these things during my days to be in vain.  Early on in my faith, I learned that healing takes place when I am vulnerable and share my heart with both God and others close to me.  Writing in a journal has been a part of my journey from the beginning; and I do feel a purpose in walking this Princess Path and experiencing God’s glorious presence along the way and heralding this reality to inspire other princesses.   That is what we are-you know...princesses!

I believe God has given me the gift of exhortation and even humbly I say the gift of writing when I rely on His spirit and not my strength; for I am still capable of being tongue-tied and thoughts are often clogged in my brain, and please don't ask me what a present active participle is (if you do, I will google it) but I surly do not want to just get out my megaphone or my laptop purposelessly….

So what is a girl to do? What is a princess to do?

I woke up this morning and just was crying out to God…show me God what you want me to do with this gift.  I was very honest with my need to be encouraged and helped along this path…this princess path.

After a summer taking a hiatus from writing on my blog to focus on my three little and not so little munchkins around my home; I am now feeling paralyzed-stuck and tempted to quit posting on FB and my blog.  Yet, I don’t feel completely at peace with quitting either. 

I desire dialog and it seems so many are just too busy to comment; or maybe I am not asking for comments????  

Blogger still tells me an astonishing number are reading my blog or at least visiting my page.  So what should I do???

I’m typing and processing through my thoughts as the rain pitter-patters on my windowsills and my eyes are as wet as the ground outside. 

I cannot help but reflect and remember where I have come from and my walk this morning.  Encouragement from the Lord and those He has placed along and across my path I remember…oh thank you Lord that your Word says to remember…

Duet 5:15 “Remember that you were slaves in Egypt and that the LORD your God brought you out of there with a mighty hand and an outstretched arm….”

Deut 7:18, “But do not be afraid of them; remember well what the LORD your God did to Pharaoh and to all Egypt.”

Deut 8:2, “Remember how the LORD your God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands.

It isn’t supposed to be raining today, the weather man said the last of it was yesterday and I can’t help but smile thinking that God made it rain,  right now, just for me-ha!  (Every Princess needs to know that God is moving on her behalf right at some point...)

I was able to get out and still have my morning walk in between the showers and as my feet were hitting the pavement I was shooting up high my requests to God.   One of my requests was just flat out asking God for encouragement…we can do that you know?!?

I couldn’t help but be drawn to the wetness all around, probably because again my eyes and heart could identify with the soppiness. 

Then it was as if God lifted my head and my spirits by drawing my attention to the sprinklers spraying the lawn across the street. 

I felt as if God was nudging me to see the need for all kinds of watering.  God brings His encouragement once in a while in this desert with a rain storm—but the lawn still needs the sprinklers to spray the much needed water. 

I don’t know, I could be crazy but I just feel this renewed focus to keep going and be that sprinkler of words to a sea of women who may just identify with something I write and I pray they will be encouraged to seek God in His Word and experience the encouragement like rain that only come from above. 

I was reminded listening to this past week's Girlfriendit Radio Show, titled, "What Does It Take?" (you can find it here) that in order to keep pursuing the path God has for us we must keep a balance of a displaying a humble spirit, knowing we do not have all of the answers; yet also very aware that God has given us gifts and to believe not only in God who gave us these gifts but in the power that resides in us believers to use these gifts for His kingdom purposes.  

And with joy may we draw water from the wells of salvation to sprinkle on in this world.  (Isaiah 12:3)

What do you need to keep sprinkling?  


Julie said...

Don't give up or quit because you aren't 'hearing' from man. We are a fickle group, remember??? Perhaps, God has you in this place reminding you (all of us) that you (we) are here on this earth to seek Him.

Journey on J-Girl! :)

J-Girl said...

Ah true :)
Determined to persevere and seek Him today <3